Can I be honest here?
There are days where, straight up, I do not feel like writing this section. Like for real. There are some days when I wake up and look at my computer and give it a look like “might don’t make it.” Because the truth is there are days when life is real in the worse ways and I don’t feel like being “motivational” at all.
On those mornings, I really have to push to find something worth sharing. And it always seems like on those mornings, the finding is harder than any day before. I thought about it last night and my head was filled with dread.
This morning as I was thinking about it, I realized something: that on the days where I felt like it was hardest to find something worth sharing, I dug deeper and deeper until I did. And in some twisted way, every night before was just a set up for finding something truly great.
Today, I didn’t have to dig too deep. I literally heard what I wanted to share while sitting in traffic using the radio to block out the horns. It was a song that I heard last at a funeral a few months back and one that some of you may already know well.
The lyrics start out:
“Sometimes you have to encourage yourself.
Sometimes you have to speak victory during the test.”
I’m no guru on this stuff- I am as real as everyone who reads it. And I think the message of the song is one that I am learning more and more as I go along. There are days when nothing will move you but what you can find on your own. On those days the searching will feel tedious, it will feel like an endless pursuit. In those moments we are often quick to act as our own consolers, we need to remember to be our own encouragers as well.